Last night I had D & I over for a slumber party. Our first one at my place which was super exciting for all of us! (They did much more slumbering than I thanks to my dream of us all sleeping together in my bed like three bugs in a rug.) But it was totally worth it pre-sleep! Snuggling together talking about Star Wars and giggling about jokes that don’t make any sense until they both finally fell asleep. The perfect slumber party memories.
Then (of course) I couldn’t fall asleep. I laid awake thinking about how much they have grown and changed, and not changed since they were babies. And then thinking about how much I’ve grown and changed and not changed during their lives.
Mostly, I thought about the thing that has changed the most since I switched from pursuing journalism post college to caring for babes. How much I love living life at a child’s pace. Before, I was completely driven by my ambition. Career, academics, being well known and having a bunch of projects in the works–always striving to achieve the next thing. A few months into proper adulthood post college, I decided to stop and slow down. For a year, I thought, I’ll live a calm, simple life of nannying to recharge before taking the world by storm once again never looking back.
Enter D & I and that year has turned into five.
I couldn’t be more grateful for that twist. Today my life feels grounded in the present moment. With kids, you can’t help but live day to day, task to task and often moment to moment. There is no way you can force your ambitions for day, activity or interaction on a new human. You learn to accept people for who they are, what they need and how they feel. You learn to accept yourself for who you are, what you need and how you feel. And then you learn to work together, to be a team and to try your best to bring out the best in yourself and others. And most importantly, know how to let go of how you want things to be and be grateful for how they are. Today the things that make me most happy are the things I didn’t plan or strive for. Every day is full of small moments of joy, growth or reflection thanks to the people I care for and who care for me.
Today we had a slow morning (mostly thanks to D’s alarm unexpectedly going off at 6 a.m.), brunch with the Anderson clan and our annual ice skating adventure. Probably the most perfect Saturday.
Happy Saturday everyone!
Location: Pickwick Ice, Burbank.
P.S. Their hot chocolate is AMAZING.